Had an incredible session with the hypnotherapist yesterday, most of which was talking about feelings, negative feelings about myself and situations I'm in, what in turn leads me to depression, and how to stop the self inducing style of negativity and negative emotions which can permeate my life.

This is before the smoking cessation was even talked about really. The session took place to finish off a two hour session, and I came away clutching a CD of the hypnotherapy session to replay again and again when I need it. Just wonderful value for £50, including an introduction to Emotional Freedom Technique Points! (EFTP)

I cannot say that it has stopped me smoking, although I'm really thinking very carefully before I "light up", and am not at all sure I want to do so. The fact that I've smoked so few since yesterday, (about 8), is major progress, but I ask myself why I did it anyway! Simple, maybe. I wanted to.

Why? Because my mind was in total turmoil after the first part of the session yesterday, and I wasn't coping too well with how my brain was processing it all.

A cigarette seemed to temporarily bring calm, even momentarily. I know this sounds crazy. Then that's probably where I am.