Just feeling that I'm running on empty again this week. Not "up" or "down", but just empty, with nothing to give. This, I guess, is due to the anti-depressants really. I'm back to where I was with a comfortable numbness! Although it's not so comfortable because I want to feel alive and energetic, and full of ideas and enthusiasm again.
Maybe some more sessions with the hypnotherapist will do the job! She seems to be able to touch parts of my brain that drugs, alcohol, or people don't seem able to do!
I'm now beating myself up about my inability to seperate myself from cigarettes. That's now causing me pain. I really want and need to stop, but it's a bit like the alcohol, as it once was for me. I feel entrapped and chained! There must be another way. I'm looking at the Alan Carr book. Why is it taking me so long to pick it up and get going with it??
